I hate July

You can’t escape it, and no matter how fast you run or how faraway you go, it would still be there chasing you like a shadow in the dark.
You can’t change it, you can’t do anything about it, fighting it is pointless; wanting to go back is useless.
And all you can do is just watch it stare you back in the eye, questioning your existence, making you doubt everything you are doing now.
Accepting it is difficult, living with it is hard, constantly being reminded of it makes it impossible.
A castle of bricks and a castle of sand; a brick is moved and replaced by grains. Strong on the outside, weak within; one mistake and all falls down.
I was never a big fan of July, but I even hate it more now.

Rockie Road

We change not because we want to but because we need to, there is so much potential in everyone and I just want to make sure that you know how much you are worth and how cherished you are.
I may have scared you with my talk, but truth of the matter I like the way I am, I am straight forward and I do try my best to stay like that all the time. If I don’t like something I will let you know about it, not because I want to bother but because I don’t want it to be an issue in the future. I always believed that most friendships end because they don’t communicate and don’t tell their concerns to each other, and I refuse to be like that. You are my soul mate and I will talk to you as though I am talking to myself, knowing that I won’t be judged, hated nor rejected, on the contrary, I will be loved, embraced and appreciated. I want you to know that I appreciate your honesty and everything about you. I want you to always know that you have my full and undivided attention, love and understanding and when things get tough and hard, I will be there full heartedly giving it my all to ease things up, because the last thing I want is for us to ever part or reach a point where we can’t be honest to each other or can’t be around one another. I know I am quiet at times, you may think that I disapprove or that I am hurt and acting all strong , by now you should probably know that I wear my heart on my sleeve, and you of all people can read me like an open book.
I want to do things the right way, I want to do you justice and I want you to put your worries to rest because I wouldn’t change anything about your past, present or future, I love you; when you love people you see them flawless, you see them as nothing but perfect and with all the things that you like to call “mistakes” In your past, they only make you even more perfect. If you ever felt like doing something no matter how absurd, crazy or heartbreaking it is for me, I need you to tell me, so that I can help put a smile on your face, so that we can get through it together, so that I don’t let you walk out on an urge, a wish or a dream.

I love you so much and maybe one day you will come to realize just how much.